"Mommy, I'm sad"

My son (aka, Noodle from here on out) are sad. . .he's sad because I'm disciplining him; I'm sad because I have to. I'm not afraid of spanking or taking the hard line, but it TOTALLY rips my heart out. . .and he completely grasps how to work the system. On top of that I'm weaning myself off some medicine that I've been on since I lost baby #2 about a year ago...will post the details of that for posterity later. . .but it's high time I get off these "happy pills" as my huband calls them. So I'm twice sad...AND I'm on this stupid HCG diet. .I've lost 14 lb in less than 3 weeks, but I might would consider trading Noodle, especially with his current behavior, for a huge bowl of ice cream and chocolate syrup! My job is a lot and seriously, people, I just want to sleep. . .not forever, but for the love of...can a girl sleep IN???

So often I'm a single mom as my husband (name yet to be deterimined) is a police officer and works odd hours, so the Mommy job is all me, on top of a stressful 40hr a week sales job. Today I just feel sad and tired and empty. Sorry to be a Debbie Downer when I just first start blogging, but we are Brain Dumping here.