Perky Polly

It has been a great day! Off to preschool early with Noodle and minimum melt downs. Husband was home for the morning studying and we sat in the same room all morning, and it was great. I have been super productive...sewing room on its way to being cleaned, 5 loads of laundry done (not folded, but who's perfect), sheets changed, and showered! I mean whoo hoo!

I think I might be on the other side of whatever was going on, and I'm so thankful. I've been daily giving it up to God and asking for my prayer warrior friends to pray for me, and God is seeing me through...I'm so thankful.

Debbie Downer and Perky Pete

Today, I'm still Debbie Downer...I cheated on my diet, I'm PMSING, I can't seem to do anything right at work, all I can think about is the chocolate cake in the fridge (and I was weak and had some) when I'm suppose to just be having an apple day (I'm doing the HCG diet), my sister bent my ear for over an hour about her terrible husband and their ongoing divorce and his abuses....

My husband has decided he's going to be Perky Pete and counteractive my down-ness...and he struck out all my negativity (he doesn't know about the cake)and he was pretty effecitve.

I just hate feeling like this...is it because I'm weaning off this medicine? Is it because I really don't like my job right now...Is it because I'm overweight? Is it all of it? What can I do to change it? I know I need to pray about it, but it just seems kinda silly to pray about this...which in turn sounds silly for me to say it's silly.....I'm just one big pinwheel of emotions.

I need to clean my garage, get in shape, get my business moving, diet, blah, blah, blah....

Ideas? I know that I need to pray and give it to God...I'm just pissed that I can't do it on my own.

"Mommy, I'm sad"

My son (aka, Noodle from here on out) are sad. . .he's sad because I'm disciplining him; I'm sad because I have to. I'm not afraid of spanking or taking the hard line, but it TOTALLY rips my heart out. . .and he completely grasps how to work the system. On top of that I'm weaning myself off some medicine that I've been on since I lost baby #2 about a year ago...will post the details of that for posterity later. . .but it's high time I get off these "happy pills" as my huband calls them. So I'm twice sad...AND I'm on this stupid HCG diet. .I've lost 14 lb in less than 3 weeks, but I might would consider trading Noodle, especially with his current behavior, for a huge bowl of ice cream and chocolate syrup! My job is a lot and seriously, people, I just want to sleep. . .not forever, but for the love of...can a girl sleep IN???

So often I'm a single mom as my husband (name yet to be deterimined) is a police officer and works odd hours, so the Mommy job is all me, on top of a stressful 40hr a week sales job. Today I just feel sad and tired and empty. Sorry to be a Debbie Downer when I just first start blogging, but we are Brain Dumping here.

First Post. . .what I'm about. . .

I'm a working wife and mom to a son. . .I didn't intend to be a professional. . .it's my hearts desire to be a stay at home Mom. I'm a Christian and a sinner, saved by Grace and struggle in my walk as I grow in Christ. I'm honest but would walk a mile to hurt your feelings. I'm sensitive and caring, creative, value my friends and my family; I'm a Southern girl and think there is a right and a wrong way to do things. I hold myself to sometimes impossible standards and have a really difficult time with not being perfect.

This blog is a place for me to vent, be creative, write, and cronicle my life. My degree is in English and I feel like there is a book in me. I think maybe this is a baby step. I struggle with being ok with myself and being content in the now. I can't guarantee my posts will always be nice or pretty or even spelled right, but they will be honest and raw, and God willing, might help someone.